Monday, October 21, 2013

New Radical

"It's been a while, where should we begin. Feels like forever. Within my heart are memories, Of perfect love that you gave to me. Oh, I remember."

You know how in the movies, there are these "interlude" scenes, that actually make the story. Scenes where musicians; artists; athletes; lovers "find themselves" and with it the courage to move on and make something brilliant happen. It usually comes in the form of a quiet contemplation, or a moment of absolute despair, which slowly turns into an awakening, a realization and inspiration to continue. The music picks up and suddenly you're enthralled by the progress. Everything is dramatic. You get the goosebumps, chills (you name it) and for those measly two minutes you actually are completely convinced that life is brilliant. You even come home and look up the soundtrack. What was that song again, that song that played in that moment? You want to hear it again, and again. Probably in the hope of feeling a semblance of how you felt. Those measly two minutes.  

Well. This summer, I didn't wait for that moment. I woke up one morning and skipped the thought process entirely. Very mindlessly and recklessly,  I decided to live a little. Completely robotic. No music, no drama, nothing. I waited a long time for it to come. It never did. 

What resulted was a phase of complete abandon that entirely blew my mind. "When was the last time you did something for the first time?" Here's my response. 

Traveled to the west coast of the United States. (View on drive to Big Sur)



Visited Washington DC.



Explored the Newport mansions in Rhode Island (View below, from the balcony of The Breakers mansion).



Experienced a Vermont fall.
 

Swooned all over Justin Vernon as he performed with his new band, Volcano Choir :)


(Somewhat) enthusiastically witnessed the Red Sox play baseball (My mind racing with cricket comparisons! :))



Sang at the top of my lungs with Eddie Vedder and a packed DCU Center, as Pearl Jam ROCKED the stage.


Ventured to New York for my first Broadway play, Kinky Boots. 


Watched Roger Federer play tennis (undoubtedly one of the greatest in the history of the game :))


And watched the man from "Down Under", Colin Hay in concert. Cried a little when he sang "I just don't think I'll ever get over you".

I now think back to last year, this time. A hospital bed, a wheelchair, a walker. That fracture, f-in changed my life. That break, put everything in place. Just the way I always intended it to be. Perhaps writing this post is my "interlude". My greatest moment of reflection. I mean what could be better than realizing that the shittiest experience of your life, in fact, saved your ass ;)  

  

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

That's a nice place you are in! If you know what I mean... :-)
-sk

Anonymous said...

3 years back when I turned 30 I did something similar. I had decided to return to India at the end of it all and went about doing a list. Crater Lake, Grand Canyon, NYC, Roger Waters in concert and a Boxing Day Ashes Test in Melbourne.

Trouble is always the intensity. Maintaining this. Not sagging under the weight of the mundane eventually. If you get around to cracking that, please let us know. :)

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soulasylum said...

Thanks sk! It's a nice place, yes ;)

Thanks essentialme! Good to "see" you! I can finally read your posts. Awesome!

To be honest, I'm not really expecting to maintain this intensity of doing things. I always imagined it would be this brilliant little phase, that hopefully I could repeat someday. I'll be * shocked * if the mundane doesn't get to me. I think it already has. I'm just grateful that I followed through and did some of the things I always wanted to vs.just thinking about doing them. It helps to let it go beyond that :) Will not deny, there have been several difficult moments in there too. Heartbreak and challenges. Just kept going for a change. It was refreshing :)


Unknown said...

I've always wanted to do something like this, but I would think about the logistics and allow practical annoyances to get in the way. However, I think this is fantastic! Kudos for your bravery to actually enjoy life and what it has to offer.

soulasylum said...

Thanks so much for your comment! I highly recommend you give it a shot. It's so uplifting and makes for wonderful memories! :) It took me a good 4 years of procrastination until I just went through with it. So I totally understand your situation. Hope you power through and experience it! :)

Unknown said...

Love the pictures! I have never been to that side of USA yet, so your post made me really wanna go there! Especially, NY! I wish to go there before I leave US.
I have been in US (east coast) as an international student. So hope I can go there and take awesome pics like yours! :)
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