"Don't be a doer be a be-er" ;)

~Heather Anastos

(Director of Competitive Tennis - USTA)

Heather and I went for a trip to Cape Cod. And Heather spoke, a lot. And I listened to her, a lot. Not only coz she was my boss's boss. But because I knew she liked to speak.

She said to me "Always pay attention to background conversations. The ones that happen at the back of your head". I stood there gaping like I didn't quite get it (even though I had). "These background conversations need to be addressed. Or before you know it they become foreground conversations and if you still choose to ignore them, they become a reality". Hmmm....I fervently nodded my head. What she said made perfect sense.

Is it that difficult for us to address background conversations. Why do we let them go on for so long in our head. I was left thinking... Is this a background conversation?

And as I walked down the beach, I realised that every conversation, every word and voice, slowly died. All I could hear was the sound of the waves. And the sound of my breathing.

I sat up on the ledge and looked at the vast expanse of water that lay ahead of me, the Atlantic Ocean. And I realised I was in a fortunate moment where I didn't miss a single person or thing. I didn't miss my parents, my friends, my ipod, my books... nothing.

For a moment I was fine, absolutely at peace with myself.

For a moment, there was no craving, no desire, no angst and no glee.

For a moment I could just....be.